A 38 Week Soapbox

So, I must admit…I am slightly disappointed and mildly frustrated. At my 37 week check up I was dialated to half a centimeter and yesterday I went back for my 38 week check up and I’m still at half a centimeter! I was hoping for some progress, I know to be dialated doesn’t really mean a whole lot; but for me a little more progress would have meant so much to me. I also realize that my due date is not until the 20th and I really shouldn’t expect to go into labor early; but there is this deep seeded hope to be holding my baby sooner than later! I still love being pregnant; but I am just ready to have my baby in my arms! Which brings me to the next point…
I do realize that life is going to be very different after we have this baby. But, I have to say I am really tired of people telling me take time to enjoy your life with your husband now because it will never be the same, especially when they say it like it’s a bad thing. Or they tell me be thankful for the time you have of peace and quiet because before you know it there will be the cries of a baby waking you in the night and so on. I’ve also had some people tell me that during the first month of Klayton’s life that I am going to wonder why I even wanted a baby?! Can I just say something…we have waited for this day! We love our time together as a couple and we will have it even after Klayton comes, it might not be as much alone time as it is now; but we are adding to our life! We are ready to become a family with this little boy inside of my belly! The cries that will wake me in the night…I have longed for those cries, they may not be my favorite times; but I am determining to be thankful for a baby’s cry to awake to. We have wanted a baby for so long and though it wasn’t always easy to wait, when I look back I am thankful for the gift God has placed in my belly and for the time God decided to place this gift in my belly-this baby was and is worth the wait. My baby boy is the child I need, I am the mom he needs and Joseph is the dad he needs-God knew what He was doing when He placed this baby inside of me! I praise the Lord for this gift and I praise the Lord in advance for the days of no sleep, for tears, dirty diapers, spit up! I praise the Lord in advance for the days of sleep, smiles, cuddles, a potty trained baby! I praise the Lord for what He is adding to my life and what my life will become when Klayton is in my arms!