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Sunday, June 2, 2013

Waiting for a Rainbow

I recently read a blog that literally brought me to tears through this statement,

"Grateful for the rain in my life, for it most certainly causes me to grow."

I know I don't get overly personal on here; but...since December 20th of 2011 my little family has faced some of our darkest days. Days that I NEVER want to repeat and I HOPE that it was the hardest time of our lives that we will ever have to face; but God knows best!

I just don't feel "right" about sharing the battle we faced. But, I will share some other things...

"Grateful for the rain in my life, for it most certainly causes me to grow."

I struggle with infertility, we tried for 18 months before conceiving Klayton...this time around I have had a miscarriage and am still waiting. Klayton was most definitely worth the wait and I know the child I am yearning for will be as well. Unfortunately, I am not always grateful for the rain while I wait. Yes, I love rain when I'm safely indoors and I can hear it pitter patter against the roof/window; but I don't like it when I have to get out in it to do grocery shopping! I like to think that I am snuggled safely inside my house enjoying the rain in my life; but I'm not I'm out there a big mess, makeup disheveled from tears that have been shed and the gloom rain can bring can be seen in my eyes not enjoying this season of my life as I tromp through the puddles carrying all my baggage-trying to get out of the rain as fast as I can. (Did you catch that I have been trying to be metaphorical? Hopefully you understood my metaphors...)

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Grateful for the rain in my life, for it most certainly causes me to grow.

This convicted me to the point of tears, I cried out to God and thanked Him for what He is doing in my life. Two days later I was asking,
"Why me?" "
"Why does it have to be so hard?!"



Am I the only one who gets convicted, acts upon it and then just as quickly forget how real and desperate that desire was at the time to just trust God to make that beautiful rainbow to appear when the rain ceases?

Grateful for the rain in my life, for it most certainly causes me to grow.

If this statement was true in my life, I would embrace the rain. I would run outside and let it wash over me, let God do the purging in my life to do what is necessary to make that rainbow appear!



But, I realized being grateful is a choice! I must choose to be grateful while I wait for a rainbow! So, tonight I will choose to dance in the rain and enjoy what and who I have now!

2 comments:

Kelly Stamps said...

We were sharing a lot of the same thoughts!!!! :-) Praying for your right now.

Kendra said...

Thank you Kelly, that means a lot to me.